Not many people know what it is like to spend a day outside the daily recreated sufferings, drama and conflict we maintain for ourselves. We respond to the world through a thick layer of predictive programming and emotional dependency. When emotions are dominate, the mind is in control and the senses are dead. We lose the sense that we are connected to others and our environment. We should learn to become sensitive to subtly. Their actions in life are often very habitual, programmed, and reactive to forces outside of them. In other words, their lives are ruled by forces beyond them, and not by a true inner self or spirit.
This is why people have all sorts of addictions (to junk food, tobacco, alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, money, and so on). People respond to all kinds of influences from outside themselves, but remain disconnected from within. And, the busier they are, the less likely they even try to connect with the Supreme Ultimate spiritual source. They are connected as if by strings to everything else. If we are angry at someone else, we are dependent on them to guide our emotional responses, this is why we cannot stop being angry. We are weak and are deeply subjugated by others, so we suffer. In order to be free and not respond to the whim of emotional flareups we have to face our own shadow.You experience the world through your five primary senses; visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, and gustatory. But you do not take in these impressions directly as they are. They pass through multiple filters, colored and often distorted by your interpretations, expectations, beliefs, associations, fears, desires and opinions. You also perceive through cultural, religious, professional, educational, and gender filters created by your own unique experiences.
Our perspectives are always colored by the experiences that we've had, and an emotional response that we're having to what we're bringing in. Who is in the driver's seat when we control our emotions or we respond to our emotions? The body is a protein-producing machine. In the hypothalamus, we take small-chain proteins called peptides and we assemble them into certain neuropeptides or neurohormones that match the emotional states that we experience on a daily basis. So there's chemicals for anger, and there's chemicals for sadness and there's chemicals for victimization. There's chemicals for lust. There's a chemical that matches every emotional state that we experience.
And the moment that we experience that emotional state in our body or in our brain that hypothalamus will immediately assemble the peptide and then releases it through the pituitary into the bloodstream. The moment it makes it into the bloodstream it finds its way to different centers or different parts of the body.Now, every single cell in the body has these receptors on the outside. Now one cell can have thousands of receptors studding its surface, kind of opening up to the outside world. And when a peptide docks on a cell it literally,like a key going into a lock sits on the receptor surface and attaches to it and kind of moves the receptor.
What happens in adulthood is that most of us who've had our glitches along the way are operating in an emotionally detached place or we're operating as if today were yesterday. In either the disconnected place or the overly emotional reactive place they've gone to an earlier time in reality. We bring to ourselves situations that will fulfill the biochemical craving of the cells of our body by creating situations that meet our chemical needs. "It always happens to me", "Every day!"," Why me?",And the addict will always need a little bit more in order to get a rush or a high of what they're looking for chemically."Don't tell me to calm down!","You're always bossing me around."
So my definition really means that if you can't control your emotional state you must be addicted to it. So how can anyone really say they're in love with a specific person? For example: They're only in love with the anticipation of the emotions they're addicted to. Because the same person could fall out of favor the next week by not complying. My goodness, doesn't that change the landscape of our emotional outlook on personal needs and identities? We are emotions and emotions are us.
Again I can't separate emotions. When you consider that, every aspect of your digestion every sphincter that opens and closes every group of cells that come in for nourishment and then moves out to heal something or repair something--Those are all under the influence of the molecules of emotion. So you ask if emotions are bad. Emotions are not bad. They're life. Heroin uses the same receptor mechanisms on the cells that our emotional chemicals use. It's easy to see then that if we can be addicted to heroin then we can be addicted to any neural peptide, any emotion. The relevant search command that's going on is related to finding a certain emotional state. I mean, we can't even direct our eyes without having an emotional aspect to it.
If we're bombarding the cell with the same attitude and the same chemistry over and over again on a daily basis when that cell finally decides to divide when it produces a sister cell or a daughter cell that next cell will have more receptor sites for those particular emotional neuropeptides and less receptor sites for vitamins, minerals, nutrients, fluid exchange or even the release of waste products or toxins. Now, all aging is the result of improper protein production. What happens when we age? Our skin loses elasticity. Well, elastin is a protein.What happens to our enzymes? We don't digest as well. What happens to our synovial fluid? Those are proteins tha tbecome brittle and stiff.What happens to our bones? They become thin.
So all aging is a result of improper protein production. Nutrition can only do so much if the cell doesn't even have the receptor sites after years of emotional abuse to even receive, or to let in the nutrients that are necessary for its health. From what seems like simple emotional patterns, personal characteristics that we classify as "us", our conditioning runs deep and inevitably impacts our quality and length of life on this globe. If you practice mindfulness, sensitivity and cultivation and open your eyes to the chemical desire for drama and victimization you can free yourself of prison that limits your life. The bars to this prison are invisible, and we do not see its walls. We have a set amount of options in consumption and entertainment that our rulers place before us so we feel we exercise freedom to choose, but the truth is just the opposite. Freedom comes when we stop responding to the world and life and start acting out of experience and choice.
